First Day of Wearing Glasses

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “First!.”

Saying that I got caught in school’s eye exam is not really correct. The correct way to say is that, I surrendered myself during the eye exam. I know that I have trouble reading the blackboard. But, being 9 year old girl, I somehow can’t muster the courage to tell my parents about it. So, I failed the eye exam, and when the nurse provide the report to my teacher, she surely called my parents. Not long after that, I got my first glasses.

I didn’t wear it on my way to school the next morning. I was still self-conscious about wearing glasses, although I knew I need it to see the blackboard. At the classroom, I pulled the plastic case from my bag, open the case and pull out my glasses. it was oval with a thin frame that I choose, so that not to look to obvious. I can’t really remember the prescription, but I think, it is around -1.5 and -2.

Slowly I put it on my face. This was the first time I wear my glasses in public, outside my home and optician’s office. I was surprised with the clarity of my vision. The writing on the blackboard, which was white smears, suddenly become crisp white. I can even see the feature of my classmate who was sitting across the room.

No need to say that, I was carried away with the experience. I keep wearing them during class break, and eventually until the end of school day. My friend said nothing about my new glasses. Some even complemented my new glasses.

My eyes got a bit tired on the evening. The sharpness and the clarity has put a bit of strain on my eyes. Probably, my eyes didn’t really used to seeing crisp world, and more used to seeing soft blurry shapes. I took of my glasses, thinking to give my eyes some rest.

Immediately after I took of my glasses, I squint instinctively. I feel blind. Everything look fuzzy and blurry. I tried to watch TV from my “normal” distance before wearing glasses. I can only manage to watch the show by squinting, or getting a bit closer to TV. I feel that I’m going blind after only few hours wearing my glasses.

I guess, I’m a full time glasses wearer by then

Meganekko Rinko

I’m grateful for my prescription after watching the video below. I can see that the glasses is so thick that the girl must be blind without them. But I don’t realize how blind she is, until she tried to read a book without glasses or looking into Landolt C chart.

I can’t really imagine how she see the world without her glasses. Does she even able to see shapes? Or only color? Can she even walk without stretching her arm?

Wear Your Glasses

“Agda, wear your glasses”

I think, the way I look into my laptop screen is so noticeable to him. He go back up, get my spare glasses, and go down and handed it over to me. Of course, from where he put his hand out, I can’t tell what is in his hand. I automatically squint a bit, and still can’t tell which glasses he get for me.

“How close do I see the screen?” I asked him. He demonstrate it by putting his thumb on his eyes, and his index finger some distance away. “I can’t see that”, squinting, and still playing the helpless girl. Without my glasses, his fingers is just one big blob.

“This close”, he pushed his hand close to my eyes. Close enough for me to see it this time.

I smirked and bury myself back into the laptop screen. Without my -12 glasses correction, I need to be really seriously close to the screen to read. I need to almost stick my nose to the screen. I need to move my head to see different part of the screen. Moving only my eyes doesn’t work, as the farthest part of the screen become blurry.

He then busy sorting some paper. I poke my nose behind him. Without glasses, I can’t tell if anything is written on it. I’m pretty sure with glasses, I can tell the small prints, and read it.

“Do you still need this paper?” He asked, showing me a piece of paper. “What is that?” I asked, squinting on a piece of paper. “Closer please.”

“Agda, wear your glasses”, he complained, but take it close anyway. “Not close enough”, I said. The distance where he put the paper is close, but not that close. The printing is only a black smear. I took his hand holding the paper closer to my eyes.

It is a piece of ATM transfer slip. “No, I don’t need it. What date is it?” I asked. While still looking, he bring the paper away. And all the prints instantly dissolve into the familiar blurry world.

“Hey, I can’t see, bring it closer”, I protested. “I can’t see that close, let me find the date”, he complained. Apparently the distance where things become clear to my eyes is too close for him.

“And wear your glasses please”, He exclaim for the third time. Honestly, I look around and can’t tell where he put my glasses.

The Sharp World

It was a long day at the office. I was doing hours of number crunching, and by 7pm, my eyes just cN’t take it anymore.

Leaning on the chair, I took off my glasses. I took a deep breath as the world dissolve into foggy myopia. I can feel my eyes relaxing from the strain that they endure for hours. The sharp numbers on the screen dissolve into white background, no longer piercing my eyes.

I took my -12 glasses on the table, and just sit there look around. I blink several times, each blink turns from darkness to blur. Without my glasses, the cubicle of the office is just fuzzy colors. I squint a bit, forcing my relaxing eyes to make out some shape, to no uses. I can only make out colors.

I walked to the window, not too far from my desk. Looking down, I can see lights moving few stories below. The lights look like big circles that bump into each other, moving into fuzzy way.

“Agda, still working?” Someone called. i look into the direction of the voice. “Actually just about to finish. Is that you Jake?” I asked. Through the blur, I still try to locate the owner of the voice. There are too much blur through my -12 eyes that I unable to locate him.

“Yes, over here”, the voice said. I still scan the room in hope to catch some movement, while walking back to my desk. I take my glasses and instantly see Jake near the door. And the sharpness of the world again piercing my eyes.

Is Hyperopia Better Than Myopia?

General consensus seems to tell so. In a movie, the one who grope around is always suffer for myopia. The vision is very blurred that even the glasses within arm length blends with the floor. It is never someone that is hyperopic who grope for glasses. Well. Someone hyperopic will have no problem with seeing in the distance, right?

I obtained a pair of contact lense with -20. While wondering how someone who need -20 correction see without one, the contact lenses make my eyes around +9 uncorrected. After few minutes, I’m grateful that I’m myopic instead of hyperopic.

No matter how severe one’s myopia is, a myopic eyes can always see something that is close enough. If for any reason I don’t have my glasses and I need to see things, I can always bring my nose close to that thing, or the other way around. This is not an opton for someone who need +9 correction

I stumbled into packaging of my contact lenses. Without +9 correction, there are no way I can read what is written on it. I’m used to clear the blur by bringing things close, but bringing the vial closer is only adding to the blur. Putting it as far as I can helps a little. It only make things smaller without really clearing it. As with myopic eyes, the packaging soon blur into the background.

A hyperopic without +9 correction won’t be abble to type this post without glasses as what I did now. My nose is almost touching my ipad, and I need to move my head to read because things at the edge dissolve into blur. Putting my ipad on the other room doesn’t help a +9 hyperopic to read without correction. The writing become too small.

If you think hyperopic eyes doesn’t need to grope, you are wrong. I ended up groping for my +4 over the counter glasses, because the glasses dissove with the background. And wearing the +4 glasses only helps a little to read the contact lens packaging

Back in the bathroom though, the lines betweentile is easier to see without glasses for hyperopic than myopic eyes. The line simply too subtle to see in the distance of my uncorrected vision. But I read and type more than counting tiles

Vision Simulation: Someone Over There?

Is There Someone Over There?

Without any correction, I can tell that there are 2 story building with roof, pot and trees. But the lady is totally invisible

Things are smaller with my glasses, but crisp and clear. The lady become visible in front of the pillar

How Close is Close?

General consensus accept that myopic eyes can’t see things that are far, but have no problem to focus to near object. The term close near for myopic eye however, is highly relative to severity of myopia.

Someone who can’t see further than one meter will need -1 glasses to see beyond that. For them, things between 1 meter to 20cm is considered near, and things closer than 20cm is too near, and become blurry as the eye unable to focus.

But for someone who need correction over -10 like myself, even things at 20cm is still considerd far. I just put a bottle 15 cm in front of me, and without my glasses, things are still so unfocused that I’m nable to make out any word. Things at 1 meter are very far, and beyond that, things are invisible. Colors run together without edges that ot is near impossible to discern one object from the other

At 3 meters, people without -1 correction might not be able to recognize face. I can’t recognize people face at half meter, telling whether somebody stand 3 meters from me is a matter of guess work and pure luck

So, is there any distance that I consider as too close? At 5-6 cm or so, the writings on the bottle starts to blur again. But I’m pretty sure that there are people out there with eyes that, without correction, even things at 6cm are difficult to read.

Who Cares About Small Increase

When the last time I visited an optician, an precribed -1 stronger glasses, I barely give a damn. In fact, the optician asked whether I want a new prescription or maintain my old one. With -10.5, I can’t read the 20/20 line. With -12, I can read it with some difficulty. Not that because it is blurred, but the line is too small as the high prescription cause significant minification.

The increase was probably due to my habit of reading on the bed with night lamp. I’am abusing my eyes, one might say, but it is broken anyway. There are small difference of needing -10.5 and -12 glassess. Both are heavy, and without glasses,both are still helpless anyway.

Well, maybe I’m concerned if my vision blur so much that I need to grope around without glasses, that even big things looses its shape, leaving only colors running together, so bad that I will bump into things.

But the things is that the incresing blurs comes slowly without I noticing it. I wasn’t really care at my younger age when I only need glasses to watch tv. But few years later I was shocked that I need to bring a book so close to my nose at school when I broke my glasses, that even friend sitting 2 seats next to me is so blurred that I can’t recognize her.

But its is all too late. As long as they can make thicker glasses to help my eyes,I think I won’t concern so much about getting new glasses. Without them, I’m helpless anyway

Where is the Toilet

There are few ocassion when I feel like doing shopping without any eye correction. Typically I will park my car, take off my glasses and leave it there so I won&;t be tempted to put them on. Afte a couple of blink, and sqnt to help clear the blur, to no success of course, I would walk out of my car and start shopping.

This one is a bit different though. I was trying some over the counter minus glasses. They max out to minus 4, which althou didn&;t make things sharp, they did help a bit to a point where I can read really big print 1-2 meters away with some difficulty. By really big I mean something that I can read from 10 meters without difficulty had I have my -10.5 in front of my eyes. Without any correction, the big print is only colors.

Then I feel the urge to pee. This is a supermarket that I&;m not familiar with, so I don&;t really know
where the toilet is. Even with help from -4 glassess, it is impossible to read any sign. So I walk out to the cashier, and ask for some direction to toilet.

“Oh, it is that way”, she point to a direction. I look, squint, blink, nothing other than colors running and moving. “That way?” I asked her again. “Yes, next to the hair salon. There are sign over there”. I looked again. Among the running lights, seems that there are a hair salon. “Ok thanks,” I said, still clueless.

I started walking towards the direction she pointed out, hoping that a hair salon will pop up once I got close enough. Without -10.5 correction though, it means right in front of my nose. Ten steps, nothing. Twenty, still nothing. I decided to ask for another direction.

“That way. You see that signage?” I squint hard. At most of the time, the signage is completely invisible to my uncorrected eye, and this time is no different. “That one”, he repeat. “Err, that. Way, right? Ok thanks.” I said to him, knowing that it will be still useless.

I walk another few steps and tried my luck for the third time. “That is the toilet”, pointing straight to my left. Without any correction, the opening of the toilet door blends perfectly with the background. I know squinting will be little help, but I did that anyway, saying thanks, and start walking.

Male, female, which one is it? The sign is well beyond my -10.5 uncorrected range of vision. I tried my luck to get into one of the door in order to get closer to the sign. Oopps, wrong toilet, I realized when a mn passed behind me. Putting a poker face, I walked to another door and loo.